I’ve kind of been in book squee mode the last couple days, but I wanted to share something with you all.
Many or most of you know how hard 2014 was for me. Between an ending marriage, moving, financial issues that almost left me with nowhere to go and no car, changing jobs, some really heavy family stuff, and what happened with my book deals, it was one of the most trying years of my life. I felt so beaten down at the end of it. I felt like each time I tried to get up, I got kicked back down. That’s a pretty shitty way to feel.
I’ve been watching Storm’s numbers all month, because I knew at some point it would pass 1000 sales. For trade publishing, that doesn’t seem like a lot. But for me, I felt really proud knowing it would hit that point because A: I don’t know 1000 people, and B: it felt like a measurable benchmark, like …I dunno. A toddler going poo-poo in the big kid potty for the first time. (Yes, I just compared publishing with potty training…forgive me.)
Storm’s already flown past its February numbers for March, and I knew it’d hit that 1000 number for Amazon alone within a week, and counting other sales from other places slightly sooner…
…but then I remembered something. When I asked for help in December (to this day one of the hardest things I’ve ever done), I said that anyone who gave more than $10 would get a copy of Storm early. No one gave less than that amount. One person gave $50 and wrote in the notes, “One book, please. 🙂 ” If I count those 80 people in (and I think they deserve to be counted), Storm has already sold over 1000 copies.
It doesn’t feel anti-climactic, not being able to watch that number click over. It feels sort of quiet and present, like a hug when you really need one. Like everything I’ve done from the moment I started writing a terrible epic fantasy at age 17 until now (7 full length novels and 3 novellas later) slowly moved me somewhere even when I felt like I was running in place. And last year, in 2014, believe me. I felt like I was wearing buttered ballet shoes and trying to win a 100 meter dash on an ice rink.
I made dis.
I really, really, really didn’t do it alone. I don’t know what I would have done without this community — without all of you and your kindness and support. You’ve all hung out with me when I was drafting like a madwoman or querying and wanting to yank my hair out or flailingly excited or deeply, deeply sad. Thanks for being people I want to write for, and friends I’m thankful to have.
So. It’s been a really long time since I’ve felt anything resembling optimism about my career’s future. I feel like I did a thing, and that I’m moving forward. Seeing Storm selling so well almost 2 months after release makes me feel many things. I’m very proud and grateful and hopeful and ready to double down and work even harder.
Thank you all for hanging around through all of this. <3
As of writing this, here’s where Storm is ranking…its highest rank ever.